Just back from ministop w LY. Didnt want to go out coz it's rainning, but i had to buy tml's breakfast & lunch. We were there for 30mins. Not that ministop's such a big place, but we can't decide what to buy. 2 mad Sporeans...a basket each full of chocolate & snacks & bread. I went crazy, bgt lotsa of chocolate....apparently it's gd to eat it b4 exams, gets the brain working? but i'm not getting for tomorrow... i might just finish everything tonite... coz i'm getting a bit crazy now....need something to calm me down...Both of us bgt beer too.... worried that we can't sleep tonite. Beer's not my best choice, but anything stronger i'd be stoned tomorrow. Can't take the risk... meeting LY at 630am to walk to train station. Apparently it's gona be heavy rain tomorrow....i HATE the weather!!!
We were discussing what to wear tomorrow... slippers? imagine socks being soaked thru, and our poor feet feeling cold & wet the whole day? we won't be able to concentrate during the paper coz our minds will be on our poor wet feet!! Of all days, why does it have to rain tdy & tml?! Is heaven crying? Feeling sorry for the foreigners in Japan taking a stupid proficiency paper that's held only ONCE a year?? ok, please stop crying....i dun need your pity. I'd burn all the books & notes as offering to U, k? Shall i do it now?Just done w fish & chips, followed by chocolate eclair & green tea Kitkit. Feel full & FAT but i'm still not quite done w eating. Hmm...shall i start on my chips & beer now? hmm..but it's too early to concuss now? but if i dun concuss now, when will i do? wat if i'm knocked out late and can't wake up on time tml? that's it...i'm done w revision, or rather, the lack of revision. May luck be with me tomorrow. Gona have my beer now and concuss early for the day... zzzzz.....
Sunday, December 05, 2004
Pre-exam Madness
Arrghh....I'm BORED TO TEARS!!!! Tomorrow's THE EXAM & I'm still not quite done with revision. Tried to study but nothing seems to go into my brain anymore. Somebody help me!! Replace my brain with something of larger capacity to contain all the 1000 kanji, 6000 vocab & 173 grammer for JLPT2!! I can't take it anymore....why is TIME passing SO SLOWLY tdy?!!
Maybe i should get myself drunk now....then can sleep well.... tomorrow gona test my REAL proficiency....Damned....Why did I wake up so early today? Now i have so much time to kill but i'm too restless to do anything.... Started the day with the usual clearing of my drawer....didn't realise that i kept so much junk ;p Cleaned & packed the toaster for my buyer....thot of settling the microwave as well, but decided to wait till Mon...just in case i still need to use it....
There's hardly any food left at home....not hungry but just wana munch something. Stupid weather....been rainning the whole day.... don't wana step out of my apt. Stupid rain's gona continue till Sunday afternoon! And I have to go for exam tomorrow morning. Meeting LY at 6.45am to go to the train stn together. Wah...if it's heavy rain tomorrow....damn sianz man....walk there? cycle there? haiz... dun wana think abt it... wanted to go FeelNews to buy my fav Cheese Fondue bun....but the rain...arghh!!!
Maybe i should get myself drunk now....then can sleep well.... tomorrow gona test my REAL proficiency....Damned....Why did I wake up so early today? Now i have so much time to kill but i'm too restless to do anything.... Started the day with the usual clearing of my drawer....didn't realise that i kept so much junk ;p Cleaned & packed the toaster for my buyer....thot of settling the microwave as well, but decided to wait till Mon...just in case i still need to use it....
There's hardly any food left at home....not hungry but just wana munch something. Stupid weather....been rainning the whole day.... don't wana step out of my apt. Stupid rain's gona continue till Sunday afternoon! And I have to go for exam tomorrow morning. Meeting LY at 6.45am to go to the train stn together. Wah...if it's heavy rain tomorrow....damn sianz man....walk there? cycle there? haiz... dun wana think abt it... wanted to go FeelNews to buy my fav Cheese Fondue bun....but the rain...arghh!!!
Saturday, December 04, 2004
3 Nice Guys
Last nite I was touched by 3 nice guys' sweet gestures....
First's my student. Yesterday was our last lesson. He gave me a bouq of small red roses. So sweet of him! I was so surprised. I was very very touched that he made the effort to get me a cd of my fav group (GLAY) as well. He & his wife also invited me to dinner this coming Mon but I can't make it :( I didn't expect all these..... Right after he left, i just broke down in tears. I duno how to describe the feeling... sad? touched? We've had almost 1 year of lessons (2-3hrs/week). He's more like a father & friend to me than a student. I'm going to miss our lessons so much. I feel I've learnt a lot more from him than he did from me. He told me a lot about Japanese culture, thinking etc. And was always very eager to help me with my travel plans within Japan. He's a very family man.....always telling me about his wife & 3 kids. I often thot how nice it'd be if i can find a husband like him.
The 2nd nice guy's K-san. Informed me that he didn’t manage to apply for leave during the time my siblings & I’d be in Osaka, but he’d try to end work on time to meet us in Kobe on the 13th . I didn’t want him to be rushing here & there, esp. since he’s prob tired after work, so tried to hint that it’s ok not to meet. Then he suggested the 9th . Hmm...i duno what got over me, but think I was a little sarcastic in my reply ~ saying he seems bent on fulfilling his “promise” to go Kobe at nite together. I know he sincerely wished to share the lovely nite view together and bring us around, but I just had to be mean. But I can’t help it leh ~ can’t take it when someone’s too nice to me. I already have a bad tendency to turn to him whenever I feel down etc etc. He’s been nice to give some support tho he’s not obliged to put up w my nonsense. Told Jaycee about it and we came to the conclusion that we gals are too “independent” ~ dun wana owe pp “ren qing”. And that scares some guys off! ;) After much thot, I guess I'm just trying to escape from having to bid goodbye...
The 3rd nice guy’s Aaron. He popped by last evening with his collection of 200 dvds/vcds of anime & movies, offering to copy any title I want. And he still has another 200+ in his PC. Isn’t that sweet of him? Previously he copied FMP2 for me after I mentioned i liked FMP1 but didn’t know there’s a part 2. We chatted for a while. Hmm...he’s quite an interesting person to chat with tho he sometimes goes on & on w/o stopping. 2 hrs later, he came back with 1 of my anime request & to collect the washing machine that Asep left behind. Think he wanted to chat a little while, but seeing that I’m still in tears after my English lesson, he quickly left with the washing machine. But he told me to give him a list of anime I want & he’d copy it for me if he has it. He’s so nice! I mean, he’s probably bz studying for JLPT2 but took the trouble to do this knowing that I’m leaving soon....
There are nice guys out there after all.....
First's my student. Yesterday was our last lesson. He gave me a bouq of small red roses. So sweet of him! I was so surprised. I was very very touched that he made the effort to get me a cd of my fav group (GLAY) as well. He & his wife also invited me to dinner this coming Mon but I can't make it :( I didn't expect all these..... Right after he left, i just broke down in tears. I duno how to describe the feeling... sad? touched? We've had almost 1 year of lessons (2-3hrs/week). He's more like a father & friend to me than a student. I'm going to miss our lessons so much. I feel I've learnt a lot more from him than he did from me. He told me a lot about Japanese culture, thinking etc. And was always very eager to help me with my travel plans within Japan. He's a very family man.....always telling me about his wife & 3 kids. I often thot how nice it'd be if i can find a husband like him.
The 2nd nice guy's K-san. Informed me that he didn’t manage to apply for leave during the time my siblings & I’d be in Osaka, but he’d try to end work on time to meet us in Kobe on the 13th . I didn’t want him to be rushing here & there, esp. since he’s prob tired after work, so tried to hint that it’s ok not to meet. Then he suggested the 9th . Hmm...i duno what got over me, but think I was a little sarcastic in my reply ~ saying he seems bent on fulfilling his “promise” to go Kobe at nite together. I know he sincerely wished to share the lovely nite view together and bring us around, but I just had to be mean. But I can’t help it leh ~ can’t take it when someone’s too nice to me. I already have a bad tendency to turn to him whenever I feel down etc etc. He’s been nice to give some support tho he’s not obliged to put up w my nonsense. Told Jaycee about it and we came to the conclusion that we gals are too “independent” ~ dun wana owe pp “ren qing”. And that scares some guys off! ;) After much thot, I guess I'm just trying to escape from having to bid goodbye...
The 3rd nice guy’s Aaron. He popped by last evening with his collection of 200 dvds/vcds of anime & movies, offering to copy any title I want. And he still has another 200+ in his PC. Isn’t that sweet of him? Previously he copied FMP2 for me after I mentioned i liked FMP1 but didn’t know there’s a part 2. We chatted for a while. Hmm...he’s quite an interesting person to chat with tho he sometimes goes on & on w/o stopping. 2 hrs later, he came back with 1 of my anime request & to collect the washing machine that Asep left behind. Think he wanted to chat a little while, but seeing that I’m still in tears after my English lesson, he quickly left with the washing machine. But he told me to give him a list of anime I want & he’d copy it for me if he has it. He’s so nice! I mean, he’s probably bz studying for JLPT2 but took the trouble to do this knowing that I’m leaving soon....
There are nice guys out there after all.....
Gossip Session
Feeling stoned now, or rather stoned the whole day. Must be the sake i drank last nite + waking up in middle of nite bec of sms & couldn't get back to sleep after that. Surprised that i could still go to school on time tdy. Guess it's bec i plan to go for the last day of school for me. Ya, already decided to skip coming Mon's class coz need to do final packing b4 sis comes on Tues. After that's holidaying in Kansai region till my flight back to S'pore. I'm counting down everyday......Stoned but still managed to do the compre test tdy. But 50mins is my max. Even after a 10mins break, i can't concentrate anymore...just stared at the grammer paper, then switched off & started chatting w Eve.
We had lotsa gossip to catch up on...about the attached bitch in sch who apparently slept w someone else...making lotsa 'noise' last nite...poor Eve..she was so tramatised by it! Imagine being forced to listen to porno? She’s gona change position of her bed tonite so that she won’t hear anything..haha....maybe should give her earplugs....Then she posed me a qn...whether she should tell the bitch's bf abt it coz they are frds. My opinion? No. I feel if the couple's happy together, then let it be. It's up to the guy to find out himself or the gal to confess. But Eve thot otherwise... Hahaha, so i just told her i'd make an exception if it happens to her! ;p
Next we talked about our opinion on love & relationships. She's quite shocked by my thinking which is quite extreme: I feel that when a couple's together, they are just making use of each other for the companionship....When a guy’s esp nice to a gal, there're only 2 reasons: (1) part of their upbringing to be nice to gals, (2) to win the gal’s heart so that they can be of use to them? I guess I’m quite affected by happened this year, so I adopted this extreme thinking. But i believe there's still some really nice guys ard. So she asked, if I’m happy with someone, would I continue being happily in love or think there’s some motives behind? I answered the latter.
Guess I’m too afraid of being hurt again that I find it hard to believe that true love & happiness is at hand and would try to push it away instead. Sigh...will there ever be someone who can heal the wound & give me the confidence to accept love again?Then we talked about our characters.
She’s a pessimistic person but I’m the opposite. I wonder if it's better to be pessimistic or positive? I always try to be positive, hopeful that things will turn out fine, but when things turn out badly, I just sink into depression. If I'm pessimistic, i'd probably be better prepared for setbacks. It's interesting that we are so different yet can clique...
The last lesson of the day was a waste of time ~ playing the usual vocab quiz...getting pp to read a sentence & we fill in the blanks. I could’ve used the time to catch up on sleep! Anyway after lessons ended, Eve & I were a little bored...didn’t want to go home & no mood to study. Met Shin & we went to Jusco together. Ate our favourite ice-cream & talked for almost 2 hours! Topic? What else but the bitch? Poor Eve’s still so tramatised by it..... wonder what's her update on Sunday ;p
We had lotsa gossip to catch up on...about the attached bitch in sch who apparently slept w someone else...making lotsa 'noise' last nite...poor Eve..she was so tramatised by it! Imagine being forced to listen to porno? She’s gona change position of her bed tonite so that she won’t hear anything..haha....maybe should give her earplugs....Then she posed me a qn...whether she should tell the bitch's bf abt it coz they are frds. My opinion? No. I feel if the couple's happy together, then let it be. It's up to the guy to find out himself or the gal to confess. But Eve thot otherwise... Hahaha, so i just told her i'd make an exception if it happens to her! ;p
Next we talked about our opinion on love & relationships. She's quite shocked by my thinking which is quite extreme: I feel that when a couple's together, they are just making use of each other for the companionship....When a guy’s esp nice to a gal, there're only 2 reasons: (1) part of their upbringing to be nice to gals, (2) to win the gal’s heart so that they can be of use to them? I guess I’m quite affected by happened this year, so I adopted this extreme thinking. But i believe there's still some really nice guys ard. So she asked, if I’m happy with someone, would I continue being happily in love or think there’s some motives behind? I answered the latter.
Guess I’m too afraid of being hurt again that I find it hard to believe that true love & happiness is at hand and would try to push it away instead. Sigh...will there ever be someone who can heal the wound & give me the confidence to accept love again?Then we talked about our characters.
She’s a pessimistic person but I’m the opposite. I wonder if it's better to be pessimistic or positive? I always try to be positive, hopeful that things will turn out fine, but when things turn out badly, I just sink into depression. If I'm pessimistic, i'd probably be better prepared for setbacks. It's interesting that we are so different yet can clique...
The last lesson of the day was a waste of time ~ playing the usual vocab quiz...getting pp to read a sentence & we fill in the blanks. I could’ve used the time to catch up on sleep! Anyway after lessons ended, Eve & I were a little bored...didn’t want to go home & no mood to study. Met Shin & we went to Jusco together. Ate our favourite ice-cream & talked for almost 2 hours! Topic? What else but the bitch? Poor Eve’s still so tramatised by it..... wonder what's her update on Sunday ;p
Friday, December 03, 2004
dear Diary...
I didn't go to school tdy, rotting away at home now. Woke up late since i already planned to skip lessons tdy. There was a mini gathering of Sporean neighbours last nite. I cooked laksa & LY grilled chicken drumlets. Simple dinner but was YUMMY! After that we drank & snacked a lot. Bought this really cheap red wine (Hardy's from Australia) but it tasted surprisingly good. Tried some winter edition beer as well, tasty but no kick. There's still sake in my fridge... waiting for SY to drink w me.... oh, my bro found out that i picked up drinking here. He happily said we'd drink his collection of red wine at home for X'mas!
Met Kenneth online just now. He said Weizhou's going to NS on 17th. So we are planning to meet up on 16th. haha...bz ah...not back yet but already set appointments! Hmm....i've known these boys for 5 yrs alreadi? Still remember those days when they were in Sec. sch...we mentors guiding them in studies, playing games, going out together.....miss those days... Time really flies...they are now 18 yrs? wah, that makes me feel really old!
now my latest pastime at home's packing! Pack a little almost every other day coz i can't settle down to study. Just cleared my drawer / files ~ dumped lots of stuff.... and came across the medical report which i tried to forget about....Had to take a chest x-ray 2 mths back for student visa and the result wasn't too good but no details were given. Supposed to go for further check-up but i decided not to. 1stly, i feel perfectly fine. 2ndly, lang's a barrier. 3rdly, if it's really bad news i dun wan it to affect the rest of my stay here.... But the more i thot abt it, the more worried i became ~ grandma has history of TB, i had an episode of sharp chest pains months back when i went jogging.... so i kept the report away to keep my mind off it... haiz.. have to come across it again tdy......
Last nite Steph told me that Spore's side is getting pp for the Aichi Expo. Closing date's 29 Nov but i decided to give it a try. Wrote in this morning and was informed that the briefing's tomorrow (in Spore). Sigh...once again i miss a job opportunity in Japan. Seems like I'm not fated to be at Aichi Expo, having missed their interview in Sept with the Japan side. Thot it'd be interesting to be at such a big international event... sigh...hmm.....a little sleepy now.....
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