Jobless and enjoying it?

I've been jobless for 6 months. Being unemployed from March - July was a choice I made. I was living as a maid overseas, free lodging and food but no pay. When I returned in August, I actively searched for jobs & went for interviews but never passed the 2nd round of interviews. And that included temporary jobs! I was upset & felt very useless. Why was I not shortlisted for interviews? Why did I not pass the interview? Am I that lousy? My self-esteem plunged and I had bad mood swings. I desperately wanted to return to the workforce.

I'm still looking for a temp job with no success. Coz temp jobs want me to commit for 3-6 mths which I can't. What if I'm lucky and get a perm job? Then recently a friend told me to take my time to find a perm job I like & enjoy the free time I have now. Coz once I start working, I can no longer idle my time away like I'm doing now.

I thought it through carefully and decided to apply for a job I've always had a passion for but didn't go for it because of the 4-year bond attached. I'm still waiting for the outcome of the interview. If I fail, I really don't know what's my next step.

For now, I'll enjoy my free time & pray that all will turn out well.

Day out at East Coast Park

Feeling bored & not wanting to waste the nice sunny weather, I drove to East Coast Park with my AhKe (my darling doll) & his pet (Shiro the soft-toy dog) yesterday. The 2nd time to drive after 3 months break, I needed them for company. But they stayed to look after my car in the park.

By the time I reached, the nice sunny weather turned very hot & very sunny. Not the type of weather I want to walk or cycle around in. So I ended up pigging out at Burger King, eating my favorite mushroom swiss burger. Had onion rings and iced milo too. Need energy later for cycling mah... heehee

Rented a bicycle near McDonalds area at $6 for 2hrs + a free bottle of water. That's like $3hr/hr. Quite reasonable deal. To make full use of that, I pushed myself to cycle beyond National Sailing Centre until I reached a sign that stated "Changi Beach Park, 7480m". Quite ulu area there but can see aeroplanes flying past clearly. SQ, cathay & some other ulu airlines... Cycling back to the shop was a torture coz very tired by then. And buttocks pain pain!!

A nice day out to East Coast. Think I should go more often before I settle down in a job. Coz weekends at East Coast will probably be a nightmare.

Communicating with the deities

Having lost sleep for nights over some problems bothering me lately, I went to Shuang Lin Si to pray last Saturday. I had 4 main wishes in mind & repeated it about 9 times to all the deities in different parts of the temple. Talk about being kiasu! Heehee. I drew a lot too, to seek guidance on what I should do and see what's in store for me in the near future.

It wasn't exactly a very good lot, but not a 凶 one neither. It read "It's best to brush off your misgivings and suspicions which are only hampering your progress. Don't feel discouraged for the prevailing obstacles will vanish and be replaced by pleasant, promising prospects. " Financial Pursuit: Unpredictable at present, but good in the near future. Job-hunting: Successful following initial difficulties.

To me, this lot addressed most of the problems troubling me lately. And I had asked for guidance & help from the deities regarding it. It's amazing. It's like they heard and were really communicating with me and gave me encouragement through the lot.

When it's time to pray to 太岁 & 虎爷, I'll definitely be back at the temple.

And yes, after the trip to the temple, I sleep so much better now. It really gave me a peace of mind.

Bored

When you see many changes in my blog template & a sudden increase in blog posts within a week, it can only mean one thing: I'm feeling very BORED.

I'm done with my Korean & TVB dramas. I've finished the books I borrowed from the library. I'm too lazy to go out. I'm resisting the temptation to go out coz it means I'll satisfy my food cravings easily & my "lose weight mission" will fail.

So I end up in front of my PC all day reading & writing blogs. Reading articles & horoscope & any other nonsense that interests me. I seriously need to work. This is driving me crazy!

Getting out of a mess

Life's been a mess for me lately. A mess I created myself. I seldom regret my actions but now I do. I wish I could turn back the clock. Maybe things would have turned out differently.

I'm lucky to have support from family & friends who are understanding & always there for me. I'm learning to let go and move on. I'm trying to start afresh. It's difficult but I'll try. It's not the end of the world for me yet despite the obstacles I've to overcome.

Haiz....why do Goats always have it tough? We seem to offend Tai Sui (太岁) every year! I must go to Shuanglinsi temple to stuff Hu Ye (虎爷) with meat & pray to all the deities, esp. 太岁 soon! *Please give me better years in future*