There is no CNY mood at my workplace at all. Except for some small CNY decor which my colleagues & I hang at our work station, the dept is non-CNY. It just doesn't feel like one is celebrating CNY. On Friday, the eve of eve of CNY, most of us in holiday mood liao. I expected work to slow down in the late afternoon and everyone will be relaxed and discussing about CNY plans. Guess what? Right to the last minute everyone was concentrated at work. I was the only who left at 6pm sharp!! My boss who was on leave came back to clear work till lunchtime. A colleague of mine who was on half-day leave had to entertain calls from office after she left.
It was a bad day for me. I was in a super bad mood because I wasn't feeling well, there were tons of work to do, and people were irritating me with their behavior.
There was this crow who kept bugging me to prepare a letter for her. As if that's not enough, she insisted that I scan a copy of her. I've told her that I need others to help with the scan as my PC isn't linked to it, so that'll take time. I mean, everyone's busy, who has the time to bother with your scan request? So she kept calling & even emailed me a sample letter to follow. When I finally scanned & emailed her, she still called and asked. Bitch, can't you check your email BEFORE calling pp to ask? She's such a pain in the a**. This is not the 1st time she's being such a pest already!!
There was another bitch who got me really mad. She told her boss abt her resignation on Wed, submitted the letter on Thurs, and told me on Friday, 5.15pm!!! Sounds normal? NO!! Her notice period is 1 week, so that makes her last day to be on 1st Feb. I had to process her resignation on this very day & inform payroll so that if anything cocks up, we still have 1st Feb to sort things out. BITCH!! Why did she sit on her stupid resignation letter for the whole thurs & friday, and inform HR just before the end of the day, before the start of a nice long break? She really spolit my day. I see her gong-gong face ah, i think it's better she leaves the company earlier before she causes the company to lose money.
My big boss kept asking me if I'm on leave next week. Sighz....my colleagues are on leave but I've to go to work. There is a pile of work waiting for my attention when I go back next Wed. I feel so blue thinking abt it.
What is Chinese New Year? Isn't it supposed to be a happy event? Why am I here complaining away abt my stupid job on the 1st day of CNY? haiz..
Sunday, January 29, 2006
1st MC of the year
According to fortune tellers, the Year of the Dog is bad for those born in the year of the Goat. Haiz, it seems that even before we step into the year of the Dog, I'm unlucky already.
On monday I was down with fever in the evening, so reported sick on Tuesday. I don't know if it's the medication or work, but I suffered from a headache since returning to work on Wed. Everyday at work, my head felt "heavy" & I had and still have a bad cough.
I was so busy at work. It seems like every time before a long holiday season, there will be many deadlines, many issues to solve. Everyone and everything seemed to irritate me. Miserable (T T). I just think of going home early everyday, think of hugging my AhKe. Only thoughts of my AhKe & boyfriend lifted my spirits.
I don't dread going to work. But once at work I become a walking volcano, ready to erupt any moment. I'll be counting down to lunchtime & going home. I'll often have "resignation fantasies" ~
scenerio 1: Tender my resignation with just 2 weeks' notice with no reason. *sob sob* I have to give 1 month's notice now.
scenerio 2: I'm offered a perm job that pays 20% more.
scenerio 3: I'm offered a job opportunity overseas.
scenerio 4: I'm getting married overseas.
And of course all scenerios will have my boss asking me to stay on, or extend my last day to help them till they find someone. The replacement will come in and resign soon after, and the cycle goes on....then they start to appreciate me..... hehhehe... Dream only lah! of course I'm not that important in the dept. It's easy for them to get another dept "maria".
*cough* haiz.... when will this cough go away??
On monday I was down with fever in the evening, so reported sick on Tuesday. I don't know if it's the medication or work, but I suffered from a headache since returning to work on Wed. Everyday at work, my head felt "heavy" & I had and still have a bad cough.
I was so busy at work. It seems like every time before a long holiday season, there will be many deadlines, many issues to solve. Everyone and everything seemed to irritate me. Miserable (T T). I just think of going home early everyday, think of hugging my AhKe. Only thoughts of my AhKe & boyfriend lifted my spirits.
I don't dread going to work. But once at work I become a walking volcano, ready to erupt any moment. I'll be counting down to lunchtime & going home. I'll often have "resignation fantasies" ~
scenerio 1: Tender my resignation with just 2 weeks' notice with no reason. *sob sob* I have to give 1 month's notice now.
scenerio 2: I'm offered a perm job that pays 20% more.
scenerio 3: I'm offered a job opportunity overseas.
scenerio 4: I'm getting married overseas.
And of course all scenerios will have my boss asking me to stay on, or extend my last day to help them till they find someone. The replacement will come in and resign soon after, and the cycle goes on....then they start to appreciate me..... hehhehe... Dream only lah! of course I'm not that important in the dept. It's easy for them to get another dept "maria".
*cough* haiz.... when will this cough go away??
Sunday, January 22, 2006
Residence U reunion
I had a little reunion with my 2 neighbours from Residence U recently. That's the apartment I stayed at during my studies in Japan.
We went to a Japanese "居酒屋" (pronounced as "i-za-ka-ya"). It is at this building near Cuppage Centre. It feels as if I'm back in Japan because the ambience in the restaurant is so Japanese!! The menu is in Japanese, no translations. And there were many Japanese diners. The best is the food!
The 3 of us ordered the following:
- grilled bacon with asparagus stick
- grilled pork belly stick
- grilled cuttlefish with butter
- fried tofu with butter
- yakisoba (Japanese fried noobles)
- salad
- salmon sashimi
- fried chicken pieces
- 3 beers (Asahi)
Every dish was おいしい!! Total bill was about $90 (incl. beer which cost $7.50/pax). It's a little pricey, but worth it! o(^-^)o I've been thinking of the bacon with asparagus since that meal. *drool* I'll probably try cooking it one of these days. And I'll definately go back to that restaurant. It's been a long time since i've had authentic Japanese cuisine at a affordable price.
We were there from 8 - 10.30pm, after which we walked down to Cineleisure for supper. We had ice-cream in mind, but ended up with chocolate fondue at this "M Bistro". PIGS!!! The fondue was a disappointment. Too thick and sticky. The fruits to dip in were canned fruits (pear, peach, pineapple). As the fruits were soaked in syrup, it was difficult for any bit of chocolate to stay on it. My friend ended up using a teaspoon to pour chocolate over the fruits & eat it fast before the chocolate "slipped off" the fruit. The strawberry served was sour. The only delicious items were the mashmallow & banana. At $25 for 3 pax portion, not worth it. Anyway it started a chocolate fondue craze for me.
The next day I went shopping with my sis and bought 1 kg of chocolate buttons (meant for fondues). We did our own "home-made" fondue. We used those tripod stands meant for steaming things, put a tea-light below and put a metal bowl on the stand. Yummy!! Doesn't look very "classy" but it still tastes good!
I love pigging out with my jie-meis! I can diet for a whole week just for that one evening of pigging out ;p We're planning our next Res U reunion after Chinese New Year. Coz we need time to save $$ & lose weight first! hehehehe
We went to a Japanese "居酒屋" (pronounced as "i-za-ka-ya"). It is at this building near Cuppage Centre. It feels as if I'm back in Japan because the ambience in the restaurant is so Japanese!! The menu is in Japanese, no translations. And there were many Japanese diners. The best is the food!
The 3 of us ordered the following:
- grilled bacon with asparagus stick
- grilled pork belly stick
- grilled cuttlefish with butter
- fried tofu with butter
- yakisoba (Japanese fried noobles)
- salad
- salmon sashimi
- fried chicken pieces
- 3 beers (Asahi)
Every dish was おいしい!! Total bill was about $90 (incl. beer which cost $7.50/pax). It's a little pricey, but worth it! o(^-^)o I've been thinking of the bacon with asparagus since that meal. *drool* I'll probably try cooking it one of these days. And I'll definately go back to that restaurant. It's been a long time since i've had authentic Japanese cuisine at a affordable price.
We were there from 8 - 10.30pm, after which we walked down to Cineleisure for supper. We had ice-cream in mind, but ended up with chocolate fondue at this "M Bistro". PIGS!!! The fondue was a disappointment. Too thick and sticky. The fruits to dip in were canned fruits (pear, peach, pineapple). As the fruits were soaked in syrup, it was difficult for any bit of chocolate to stay on it. My friend ended up using a teaspoon to pour chocolate over the fruits & eat it fast before the chocolate "slipped off" the fruit. The strawberry served was sour. The only delicious items were the mashmallow & banana. At $25 for 3 pax portion, not worth it. Anyway it started a chocolate fondue craze for me.
The next day I went shopping with my sis and bought 1 kg of chocolate buttons (meant for fondues). We did our own "home-made" fondue. We used those tripod stands meant for steaming things, put a tea-light below and put a metal bowl on the stand. Yummy!! Doesn't look very "classy" but it still tastes good!
I love pigging out with my jie-meis! I can diet for a whole week just for that one evening of pigging out ;p We're planning our next Res U reunion after Chinese New Year. Coz we need time to save $$ & lose weight first! hehehehe
Saturday, January 07, 2006
MIA for more than a month!
That's me ~ MIA from my blog for ages... so much update to catch up here... dun know where to start from!!
Why haven't I been writing?
LAZY! LAZY! LAZY! guess no other words best describe why.... hehehehe...
Weekdays after work I'm addicted to msn chatting & surfing the net for duno wat... weekends & public holidays I spend my time watching tv & sleeping... nothing very productive.... And i take donkey years to reply my friends' emails even when I'm online most of the time! BUT when it comes to my dear, replies are almost immediate & I can spend the whole day making Xmas / New Year cards.... (^-^;)
Ok, here are the updates....
Work
After my colleague left in mid-Dec, my workload increased by 2 folds. From an Admin role I was thrown into a Generalist role. From days of no emails to emails flying in/out every other minute, days of filing (because i had ntg better to do) to piles of filing waiting for my attention, my job changed from a brainless to a challenging one.
Just in case you are happy for my "promotion", I must clarify that I'm just an "interim support" as termed by my Head of Dept. They've not found a replacement and everyone else is overloaded with work, so I'm helping to cover the ex-colleague's duties, minus all advisory duties. In short, I'm supposed to do more coordination, recruitment & admin work but not make any decisions. I'm quite happy with it coz it's more interesting than days of filing.
However just days into the new role I realised how much s*** I had to clear for the ex-colleague. She left behind quite a mess to be cleared and I'm the "lucky" one who'll clear her s*** and pave the way for the replacement. Yes, I'm not exactly pleased with this. I want recognition for my work and I'm pretty sure I wouldn't be recognized for my efforts in putting things right because they only see the end-product. My bosses would simply thank me for helping out during this period.
I want to come up with some processes to ensure that things are done properly because now things are all over the place. The processes will aid in my work & improve efficiency. Unfortunately once the replacement comes in, I'll say goodbye to all these work. It's not a good feeling to create paradise for someone else who'll take away your job, earn more than you, enjoy all the perks/benefits. It's a different story if I'm serving my notice & making life easier for my replacement coz I don't want her to be cursing me behind my back!
So I'm torn between doing my job & doing my job well. And it doesn't help that my bosses still treats me like their "maria" ~ fetching documents from the filing room which is just steps away, bringing their guests up, collecting their registered mails....
What joy & satisfaction can I derive from this job?
Family
Nothing much. Life's back to normal after my brother's wedding. Though they stay here, there is no change to our lives coz they're hardly at home, and even if they are, they're always in their own room. In my opinion, not very healthy. It's as if this house is their hotel....
Friends
When my friend was still in S'pore I didn't make any effort to meet up with her coz I was too caught up in my own problems. Now that she has left for a new chapter in her life in Japan, I think it'll be much more difficult to keep in touch. Guilty guilty.... I didn't even send my congrats to her....
Some special friends
Have you ever had the experience of not wanting the person whom you liked in the past know that you are in a relationship now? And even if you did tell the person, you don't want him to know the details? It's as if you still want to keep him, thinking that if one day your relationship fails, you still have someone to hold on to....
I was in such a situation for a while until one fine day, I decided to tell the guy almost everything about my current relationship ~ how much I love my dear, the problems we face & how we are progressing etc.. When I finally told him all that, I felt relieved. I can finally treat him as a normal friend (^-^)v
Relationship
No more complains now. I duno when it started but he seems more pro-active in this relationship now. He still goes missing sometimes but will still reply my last email even if it's 2 - 3 days late. And he'll now suggest when to call instead of me having to ask when. To some pp, it may seem like a trivial matter. But to me, it means a lot.
Our relationship has stabilized a lot. We talk longer on the phone now and half the time we're talking nonsense & enjoying it. We're more positive about our future plans. Though we're not sure what he'll do in future (in terms of studies/career), we had briefly discussed our future plans. I guess this helps us have a better direction of where we'll lead to and something to work towards to....
Studies
I'm half-way through my studies & not any better in the knowledge of teaching English. Understand grammer better but duno how to present it. Did phonetics today ~ totally confused & very stressed. I wonder how most of my classmates in Japan managed to bluff their way through teaching English in English Lang Schs w/o any training. Being a native speaker doesn't mean being able to teach!
That's all for updates now...
Why haven't I been writing?
LAZY! LAZY! LAZY! guess no other words best describe why.... hehehehe...
Weekdays after work I'm addicted to msn chatting & surfing the net for duno wat... weekends & public holidays I spend my time watching tv & sleeping... nothing very productive.... And i take donkey years to reply my friends' emails even when I'm online most of the time! BUT when it comes to my dear, replies are almost immediate & I can spend the whole day making Xmas / New Year cards.... (^-^;)
Ok, here are the updates....
Work
After my colleague left in mid-Dec, my workload increased by 2 folds. From an Admin role I was thrown into a Generalist role. From days of no emails to emails flying in/out every other minute, days of filing (because i had ntg better to do) to piles of filing waiting for my attention, my job changed from a brainless to a challenging one.
Just in case you are happy for my "promotion", I must clarify that I'm just an "interim support" as termed by my Head of Dept. They've not found a replacement and everyone else is overloaded with work, so I'm helping to cover the ex-colleague's duties, minus all advisory duties. In short, I'm supposed to do more coordination, recruitment & admin work but not make any decisions. I'm quite happy with it coz it's more interesting than days of filing.
However just days into the new role I realised how much s*** I had to clear for the ex-colleague. She left behind quite a mess to be cleared and I'm the "lucky" one who'll clear her s*** and pave the way for the replacement. Yes, I'm not exactly pleased with this. I want recognition for my work and I'm pretty sure I wouldn't be recognized for my efforts in putting things right because they only see the end-product. My bosses would simply thank me for helping out during this period.
I want to come up with some processes to ensure that things are done properly because now things are all over the place. The processes will aid in my work & improve efficiency. Unfortunately once the replacement comes in, I'll say goodbye to all these work. It's not a good feeling to create paradise for someone else who'll take away your job, earn more than you, enjoy all the perks/benefits. It's a different story if I'm serving my notice & making life easier for my replacement coz I don't want her to be cursing me behind my back!
So I'm torn between doing my job & doing my job well. And it doesn't help that my bosses still treats me like their "maria" ~ fetching documents from the filing room which is just steps away, bringing their guests up, collecting their registered mails....
What joy & satisfaction can I derive from this job?
Family
Nothing much. Life's back to normal after my brother's wedding. Though they stay here, there is no change to our lives coz they're hardly at home, and even if they are, they're always in their own room. In my opinion, not very healthy. It's as if this house is their hotel....
Friends
When my friend was still in S'pore I didn't make any effort to meet up with her coz I was too caught up in my own problems. Now that she has left for a new chapter in her life in Japan, I think it'll be much more difficult to keep in touch. Guilty guilty.... I didn't even send my congrats to her....
Some special friends
Have you ever had the experience of not wanting the person whom you liked in the past know that you are in a relationship now? And even if you did tell the person, you don't want him to know the details? It's as if you still want to keep him, thinking that if one day your relationship fails, you still have someone to hold on to....
I was in such a situation for a while until one fine day, I decided to tell the guy almost everything about my current relationship ~ how much I love my dear, the problems we face & how we are progressing etc.. When I finally told him all that, I felt relieved. I can finally treat him as a normal friend (^-^)v
Relationship
No more complains now. I duno when it started but he seems more pro-active in this relationship now. He still goes missing sometimes but will still reply my last email even if it's 2 - 3 days late. And he'll now suggest when to call instead of me having to ask when. To some pp, it may seem like a trivial matter. But to me, it means a lot.
Our relationship has stabilized a lot. We talk longer on the phone now and half the time we're talking nonsense & enjoying it. We're more positive about our future plans. Though we're not sure what he'll do in future (in terms of studies/career), we had briefly discussed our future plans. I guess this helps us have a better direction of where we'll lead to and something to work towards to....
Studies
I'm half-way through my studies & not any better in the knowledge of teaching English. Understand grammer better but duno how to present it. Did phonetics today ~ totally confused & very stressed. I wonder how most of my classmates in Japan managed to bluff their way through teaching English in English Lang Schs w/o any training. Being a native speaker doesn't mean being able to teach!
That's all for updates now...
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
Mind your own business
I don't understand why some people just can't seem to accept the fact that I'm happily in a relationship now.
Yes, i admit it's a little shaky because my bf always goes missing and I'm the type who demands 100% attention. But we've worked this out naturally. Or rather I've learnt to manage my expectations. We're still together ~ happy & in love. However we've no concrete plans for the future yet.
Anyway, back to the topic on why some people just love to kaypoh. My ex-boss kept asking me to consider S'pore guys instead. So did 1 of my ex-colleague who's now enthusiastically planning a dinner outing to intro her male friends to me. She had been psycho-ing me for weeks to get a S'porean bf instead because she felt that I'm suffering in this long-distance r/s. And yesterday my other colleague also asked me to reconsider. She knows I'm very serious about my current relationship, but told me to reconsider. She reminded me that I'd be in a different country, different culture etc...
How many times must I tell these kind souls that I know what I'm doing?
I know he's financially unstable now. No career too. Can't speak English. Can't survive in Singapore. I've to go over. No tai-tai life over in Japan for me. Limited jobs for me. Struggle with the language & culture. I was aware of these before I put my 100% into this relationship. I am aware of the challenges in keeping this long-distance r/s going.
I'm not giving up. Not now. We believe there is a future for us and we're working towards it. I want to hold on to this hope & future.....
Yes, i admit it's a little shaky because my bf always goes missing and I'm the type who demands 100% attention. But we've worked this out naturally. Or rather I've learnt to manage my expectations. We're still together ~ happy & in love. However we've no concrete plans for the future yet.
Anyway, back to the topic on why some people just love to kaypoh. My ex-boss kept asking me to consider S'pore guys instead. So did 1 of my ex-colleague who's now enthusiastically planning a dinner outing to intro her male friends to me. She had been psycho-ing me for weeks to get a S'porean bf instead because she felt that I'm suffering in this long-distance r/s. And yesterday my other colleague also asked me to reconsider. She knows I'm very serious about my current relationship, but told me to reconsider. She reminded me that I'd be in a different country, different culture etc...
How many times must I tell these kind souls that I know what I'm doing?
I know he's financially unstable now. No career too. Can't speak English. Can't survive in Singapore. I've to go over. No tai-tai life over in Japan for me. Limited jobs for me. Struggle with the language & culture. I was aware of these before I put my 100% into this relationship. I am aware of the challenges in keeping this long-distance r/s going.
I'm not giving up. Not now. We believe there is a future for us and we're working towards it. I want to hold on to this hope & future.....
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